Trust Myself…

I made a deliberate effort NOT to make any goals/intentions/resolutions this year…

While I was pondering becoming a year older and reliving my first year as an adult, I realized that 21 years ago I had a 10-year plan. My life turned out quite differently than I had ‘planned’ when I was 18. Even though there are days when I chastise myself for not going in the path I thought I’d go, when I really look at my life and where I am, I’m happy. And I’m actually glad I didn’t go down that path I had laid out when I was 18, for I am not the person I was 21 years ago.

For the last 10 years I have been trying to figure out who exactly I am, because the first 29 years of my life I was nudged in directions that turned out to be not right for me. So if there is a goal this year, it’s to be true to myself.

I’ve been reading Intuitive Eating this past week, and it got me thinking… what I really want to do, is to stop and listen.

For so long, I’ve been concerned with the numbers, how much I weigh, what size I wear, how many miles I walk, how many times a week I do yoga, how long I can sustain a running gait…

So rather than have this list in front of me of things I must do by some date, that I will invariably chastise myself for later if I don’t accomplish those goals, I’m going to start listening to me.

I’m going to trust myself, something I’ve been needing to do for some time.

What does this really mean? Well, I guess what it means is that I’m going to try to figure out who I am and what I want, without relying on what I think I ‘should’ do, and do what feels right. And the only way I can figure out what feels right, is to stop and actually feel what my body is trying to tell me.

Pretty philosophical, I know… but it’s where I am right now, and it feels right.

Until next time…


One thought on “Trust Myself…

  1. Girl, you have some stories. Nice to read more about where you’ve been and what you’ve gone through in other posts.

    I think that is the best thing to do-listen to your body and yourself. Yes, outlying factors may be telling you one thing but on the inside, you know whats right. I’ve heard that’s a great book, I will have to check it out at the library.

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